I often wonder how my life looks to others.
I know I look at other's and am jealous about parts of their lives and wish I had what they have. I wish we could have more freedom with money like "they" do. I wish my metabolism worked a million miles an hour like "hers" does. I wish I could buy the car that "they" have. I wish I could fall pregnant as easily as "she" does.
One of my most hated statements is "you are so lucky you don't have kids".
I'm not sure what is so "lucky" about that.
How is it considered lucky when it's actually unlucky?
I have to remind myself every single day, maybe she can afford that new dress and new pair of jeans and new pair of shoes with a matching handbag. Maybe she can eat a block of chocolate and a tub of icecream, and never ever exercise and not gain weight. Maybe they can afford that brand new beautiful car just like what I want. Maybe she can fall pregnant first try. But, maybe another part of their life is hard. Maybe their heart is breaking a little more each day just like mine because of it.
I wonder how my life looks to others.
1 comment:
I think we all wonder this esp when we experience struggles but I have come to realise, things are rarely as they seem and we all have our struggles, no one gets to be immune to that. Hope things with your tests bring some positive results.
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